Missing Bonny

All of us here at Rambellwood are doing well, as we have been
making adjustments to the absence of our sweet and precious Bonny.
 We never knew that grief could be so real, so physical and all
 encompassing. We have been endeavoring to stay close to each
other and make some new memories. We have also found it
important to do some things specifically in Bonny's memory.
 For example, we are doing a small garden in honor of her, as
this was one of her passions. We are finding that although it is
painful at times, embracing those memories is healing.

We all want to personally thank you for reaching out to us and
especially for your prayers. As the healing from our loss slowly
moves forward we welcome any words of encouragement and
continued prayers. I have attached our local obituary of Bonny
and a link below for the video Samuel made that was played at
the memorial. Future updates may be sparse, but we welcome
any contact you may want to make with us.

We are blessed to know you all,

Cary, Johanna, Grace, Sarah Anne and Matthew
(Sam & Dusty, James and Emma)

http://vimeo.com/58742787

Memorial Service

Dear friends and family,

 

There will be a memorial service for Bonny this Saturday, February 2nd, 3 pm, at First Baptist Church, 200 W. Broadway, in Winnsboro. (903) 342-3538.  Following will be a time of fellowship with refreshments served.  

 

Visitation/Viewing will be Friday, February 1st, 6 to 8 pm, at Beaty Funeral Home in Winnsboro.  816 W. Broadway. (903) 342-5211.

 

The family will have a private burial prior to the memorial.

 

Please reply to this email with a possible number if planning to attend the memorial service.  Feel free to forward this to help spread the word.

 

Missing our dear Bonny,

 

Cary and kids

In His Presence

Bonny's fight is over.  She took her last breath about 2:20 am this morning and is now with the Lord.  I will send out another email when service arrangements are made.  Please wait a bit before calling or visiting as we are all exhausted and have much to think about.

 

Thank you all, for the prayers of support that have carried us for so long.  April would have been three years.  Pray for the kids and I as God continues His work and healing in us.

 

Cary

 

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants.

Psalm 116:15

Love Hopes All Things

Bonny has made some improvements.  One of which is movement in her right fingers, hand and whole arm.  She has not been able to move her right hand at all since mid August.  Wow!  The bumps on her head have also reduced in size significantly and seem to be drying up.  Double wow!!  We are watching her toes and legs for returned movement.  She is still eating three meals a day and drinking as much as she can.  Pain levels are under control most of the time.  We all want to see the glory of the Lord in full measure upon her body.

There are still some concerns that we have to continually give to the Lord.  Her blood pressure is pretty low, heart rate high and skipping, and urine output up and down. There has also been a decrease in air movement in the lower right lung.  The nurse feels sure it is pneumonia from aspirating water or food into that lung.  She is taking antibiotics and nebulizing to combat that.

We had a special Christmas time with all our kids and also enjoyed the snow we had that day.  Johanna is managing the home, while Grace, Sarah Anne, and Matthew focus, once again, on their school.

We always appreciate the notes of encouragement and prayers, knowing you are all there.

Love hopes all things...

Cary

Heart of Faith

Bonny is hanging in there...such a desire to live.  There have not been many changes since the last update.  Good news is, she was able to get off the morphine pump by an increase and change in some other pain medications.  She has had more tremor and seizure activity and is still eating well.  She still has a hard time communicating what she is thinking, but gets emotional about many things close to her heart.

Where the "rubber meets the road" is throwing away any notion of understanding, with the mind, God's plan in all this.  When you have walked with Him all your life, as we both have, and think you halfway know His will and mind, you find that you must abandon reason (seemingly spiritual understanding) and simply trust with the heart.  This has been the greatest challenge of faith yet!  Not in believing that God is the healer, but that He simply IS.

Praying that we all have ears to hear,

Cary

Trusting

Bonny had to go on a morphine pump due to the ineffectiveness of oral morphine tablets.  Her hospice nurse feels that something went wrong in her digestive system (GI tract) to prevent absorption of the oral drugs to help ease pain. The majority of this pain was in her abdominal area.  On the morphine pump she is not in pain, for which we are all thankful for.  It was so hard to see her suffering.

 

She is still eating well, but is having some issues with normal bowel movements. She is fairly lucid on the pump, but has a hard time putting words together.  I feel that part of this problem is also from the brain metastasis she deals with, since this was also the case before the morphine pump.  I'm a bit concerned about kidney function at this time as her urine flow greatly slowed for a long period of time yesterday (seems back to normal now).  There have only been a few tremors since her last seizure.  She is on an anti-seizure medication now.

 

She is so precious and sweet as she attempts to communicate with us.  We are having some very tender moments with family and friends. We are all processing things relatively peacefully.  At times our emotions and the stress levels overwhelm us.  The Lord our God is our Rock, our Hope, the One we are trusting and holding on to regardless of the outcome of this journey.

 

Trusting our God,

 

Cary

Please Pray

Bonny had another seizure last week.  She has been disoriented and in more pain since.  We all need your prayers holding us up. We are all straining to trust the Lord, crying out to Him in this heart-wrenching hour.  Bonny has not given up and continues to call out to Him.  God's Love will win!

 

Thank you for being there in prayer,

 

Cary