In His Presence

Bonny's fight is over.  She took her last breath about 2:20 am this morning and is now with the Lord.  I will send out another email when service arrangements are made.  Please wait a bit before calling or visiting as we are all exhausted and have much to think about.

 

Thank you all, for the prayers of support that have carried us for so long.  April would have been three years.  Pray for the kids and I as God continues His work and healing in us.

 

Cary

 

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants.

Psalm 116:15

Love Hopes All Things

Bonny has made some improvements.  One of which is movement in her right fingers, hand and whole arm.  She has not been able to move her right hand at all since mid August.  Wow!  The bumps on her head have also reduced in size significantly and seem to be drying up.  Double wow!!  We are watching her toes and legs for returned movement.  She is still eating three meals a day and drinking as much as she can.  Pain levels are under control most of the time.  We all want to see the glory of the Lord in full measure upon her body.

There are still some concerns that we have to continually give to the Lord.  Her blood pressure is pretty low, heart rate high and skipping, and urine output up and down. There has also been a decrease in air movement in the lower right lung.  The nurse feels sure it is pneumonia from aspirating water or food into that lung.  She is taking antibiotics and nebulizing to combat that.

We had a special Christmas time with all our kids and also enjoyed the snow we had that day.  Johanna is managing the home, while Grace, Sarah Anne, and Matthew focus, once again, on their school.

We always appreciate the notes of encouragement and prayers, knowing you are all there.

Love hopes all things...

Cary

Heart of Faith

Bonny is hanging in there...such a desire to live.  There have not been many changes since the last update.  Good news is, she was able to get off the morphine pump by an increase and change in some other pain medications.  She has had more tremor and seizure activity and is still eating well.  She still has a hard time communicating what she is thinking, but gets emotional about many things close to her heart.

Where the "rubber meets the road" is throwing away any notion of understanding, with the mind, God's plan in all this.  When you have walked with Him all your life, as we both have, and think you halfway know His will and mind, you find that you must abandon reason (seemingly spiritual understanding) and simply trust with the heart.  This has been the greatest challenge of faith yet!  Not in believing that God is the healer, but that He simply IS.

Praying that we all have ears to hear,

Cary

Trusting

Bonny had to go on a morphine pump due to the ineffectiveness of oral morphine tablets.  Her hospice nurse feels that something went wrong in her digestive system (GI tract) to prevent absorption of the oral drugs to help ease pain. The majority of this pain was in her abdominal area.  On the morphine pump she is not in pain, for which we are all thankful for.  It was so hard to see her suffering.

 

She is still eating well, but is having some issues with normal bowel movements. She is fairly lucid on the pump, but has a hard time putting words together.  I feel that part of this problem is also from the brain metastasis she deals with, since this was also the case before the morphine pump.  I'm a bit concerned about kidney function at this time as her urine flow greatly slowed for a long period of time yesterday (seems back to normal now).  There have only been a few tremors since her last seizure.  She is on an anti-seizure medication now.

 

She is so precious and sweet as she attempts to communicate with us.  We are having some very tender moments with family and friends. We are all processing things relatively peacefully.  At times our emotions and the stress levels overwhelm us.  The Lord our God is our Rock, our Hope, the One we are trusting and holding on to regardless of the outcome of this journey.

 

Trusting our God,

 

Cary

Please Pray

Bonny had another seizure last week.  She has been disoriented and in more pain since.  We all need your prayers holding us up. We are all straining to trust the Lord, crying out to Him in this heart-wrenching hour.  Bonny has not given up and continues to call out to Him.  God's Love will win!

 

Thank you for being there in prayer,

 

Cary

Faith to Live

I know it has been a while since I've given an update on Bonny.  I will not typically send out an update unless there has been some kind of significant change.  Since the last update, Bonny's pain has increased some.  She has also had the challenge of tremors as a result of the brain tumors.  One night this lead to a siezure, which frankly shook me up pretty good.  We had family and friends standing with us through this.  She now has some medicine that helps control tremor activity.

Enduring throughout this journey has been one of the greatest challenges.  In fact, much of our current focus has been to stay strong in the fight, to "...not throw away our confidence...endure...in doing the will of God." To be "...not of those who shrink back...but who have faith."  Hebrews 10: 35-39.   What an opportunity we have been given.

Bonny loves to get out in the wheel chair and sit on the porch in the fall weather we are having.  Our youngest, Matthew, recently picked up a piece of chalk and began to write the word "LIVE" everywhere outside.  We love it...the faith of a child...no need for understanding here, simply belief.  Momma will live!

We are very thankful for the support that continues to encourage us in every way.

Cary

Unceasing Prayer

I just want to say "thank you" for all the prayer that is going up for Bonny and all of the Ramsey family. Please continue to cry out to God on our behalf. As the battle rages on and has become increasingly difficult to fight, continue to ask our Father, in Jesus name, for the impossible.  That the pain and all its source would cease.  That Bonny's pH would rise and remain at 7.4.  That her body would rise to fight and not give in.  That cancer is defeated by the stripes Jesus bore, as clearly stated in His Word. (1 Peter 2:24; Isa. 53: 4-5; Ps. 103:2-5; Malachi 4:2; James 5:16; Matt 4:23; Matt. 8: 16-17, etc.)

Luke 11

⁵ And he said to them, “Which of you who has a friend will go to him at midnight and say to him, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves, ⁶ for a friend of mine has arrived on a journey, and I have nothing to set before him’; ⁷ and he will answer from within, ‘Do not bother me; the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed. I cannot get up and give you anything’? ⁸ I tell you, though he will not get up and give him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his persistence he will rise and give him whatever he needs. ⁹ And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. ¹⁰ For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. ¹¹ What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent; ¹² or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? ¹³ If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

Persistently asking and expecting,

Cary