Wednesday, September 8, 2010


"It is like watercolor.  We are the water, but without his color, we are not beautiful.  Jesus.  Jesus.  Jesus.  We need You so much."

They are Sarah Anne's words, written in her little blue diary, written while we worshiped, and sought our Lord for wisdom. 

It is difficult to put into words, to translate with ink and pen, what God is speaking to our hearts.  But I shall do my best, because He is speaking.  And we are listening, listening because only He can bring us wisdom.

"Where then does wisdom come from? 
       Where does understanding dwell?
 God understands the way to it 
       and he alone knows where it dwells,
 for he views the ends of the earth 
       and sees everything under the heavens.
 When he established the force of the wind 
       and measured out the waters,
 when he made a decree for the rain 
       and a path for the thunderstorm,
 then he looked at wisdom and appraised it; 
       he confirmed it and tested it.
 And he said to man, 
       'The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom,  
       and to shun evil is understanding.' "        Job 28

And this is what he says, that no matter what route we go in Mom's treatment, whether it be chemo, or whether it be something else, no matter which doctor sees us, or what they say, it is God who will heal Mom.  It is He who will direct our steps, and He who we must trust.

Mom has another chemo appointment tomorrow, and she is struggling with the thought.  We do not like chemo, any of us, and Mom is searching for peace to endure another round.  At present, we are planning to continue with the chemo for another six week period, and judge the results at the end of that time.

We must walk moment by moment, seeking the Lord, brushstroke after brushstroke, as he paints His glory on the canvas of our lives.  Pray for our spiritual eyes, that we would keep a clear perspective, that we should find peace in each decision...

That we would keep our eyes fixed upon our Lord.

In His strength,



Anonymous said...

I am praying for the Lord's perfect wisdom in your treatment! Please know that we care and we pray and that we feel the sorrow and the sadness for each of you! We also know that God is FAITHFUL! That word seems so small to how big our God is in His FAITHFULNESS! Please look at Suzanne Somers book "Breakthrough Eight Steps to Wellness". She addresses cutting edge medicine and treatments that don't require poison chemo. Praying for you, mumofeight a huge hug also to each of you!

Stephanie said...

My dear sister in Christ. I haven't commented much lately on your blogs, but know, you and your family have been close to my heart and prayers. My heart rejoices to see the strength God has blessed you with. I know not all days are strong days. But the day after the rain is always clear and sunny. You can feel His love on the breeze, like the breath of peace. Feeling the sun warming your body is like His arms holding you in a tight embrace.

Hold on my dear sister. The day will be bright and full of hope!
Keep your joy sweet Emma!

You beautiful sweet Momma will be in my thoughts and prayers constantly. Your wonderful family will be in my prayers, He is strengthening you all, and bringing you all so close together.

Praise Him in this storm!