Monday, May 17, 2010

How Does One Explain?

It is difficult to find the right words, to truly describe what life at Rambellwood, our home, is like right now...  overflowing in joy, whilst battling confusion and anxiety, melting in the peace of God, while warring with the problems of men.  How can I speak everything that is overflowing in us?

We want to send Mom to M.D. Anderson.  They know more about her rare cancer than any hospital we have yet heard of.  But... despite the blessed influx of donations, we hate to give that money to M.D. Anderson.  We shrink from spending so large an amount, when we are not sure.  We think it's the best place, but what if there were another, 10 times less expensive hospital, waiting in the sidelines to help us?  We don't know, and it is such a big step. We don't want to throw away the funds so graciously given, from the heart.

That is what we struggle with now, what Dad fought and battled with all of today, calling people, back and forth, back and forth, calling our contact at the hospital, our insurance company, and Medicaid.

But, dear, wonderful, friends, tomorrow is a new day.  We have not given up.  We have pressed forward.  And we feel that God is guiding us.   We are unspeakably grateful to all of you, for your support, and prayers, and donations.  They are more than we could have hoped or dreamed for.  Already, we have enough donated funds to pay for the hospital bills already contracted in the beginning, the CT scans, the biopsies, the consultations.  And God is here with us, deeper than he has ever been, moving in the strength and power that only he possesses.

Before I close, may I ask this one thing?  That, when you pray, you pray for wisdom, you pray for peace.  Pray that my parents be given the answer God has set aside for us, that their anxious thoughts will melt away, and leave room for God to speak.

In hope of the new day,


"Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder the things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert..." Isaiah 43: 18&19


Victoria Smith said...

My 7 year old son is a patient at MD Anderson. He began treatment for cancer at the age of two at Children's Medical Center in Dallas. That was a wonderful hospital but not the best. My son was not doing well and in the battle for his life. We decided to get him to MD Anderson. He started to improve within 30 days of started treatment there. He has continued to improve ever since. He has now been in remission for 5 years and off chemo for 2 years. We don't credit that hospital for Braydon's health today. We give God that credit BUT we do feel like it is the BEST cancer hospital in the world and are so thankful GOD led us there. $25000 seems is definitly alot of money. That is a big decision. I will pray for a clear answer for your family. I realize you hate to let go of the money on your first resource. But GOD will be providing more money for your treatments very soon. I just know!
If you ever have any questions about MD Anderson or would like to talk with someone who has been there please don't hesitate to contact me anytime.

Victoria Smith
(homeschool mom from Sulphur Springs-recently moved to WInnsboro)

903 243 2202

Victoria Smith said...

I also wanted to let you know that my family will be at MD Anderson on Thursday and Friday of this week. If for some reason yall were going to be there, we would love to meet you and pray with you!

Carolyn Young said...

I heard about you thru a mutual friend on Facebook. I encourage you to read the book Knockout by Suzanne Somers in your research. I have heard good things about this clinic in Houston: Don't know if they can help you or not, but may very well be worth the research. Lord's blessings on your journey.

Leah said...

Praying for you guys!

Jodi Bellamy said...

Praying for wisdom and peace....for every single one of you!!! Sending Love too!!

Maryannwrites said...

M.D. Anderson is absolutely the best. My sister had pancreatic cancer and was treated there. She is a survivor now for 5 years. My great-nephew has a rare form of cancer and is being treated there. No cure for his type of cancer, but the treatment has given him a few years. He was not expected to live when he went for his first treatment in January. Between the treatment and the prayers, he has been given hope.